November 12th 2010 - Sick of being Sick!!!

Well I haven't posted for the last couple of days due to being sick. I have been of work last couple of days. I woke up on Wednesday and my throat was killing me and I could only hear out one ear. I went to work but didn't feel great at all. So decided to go home and I would call the doctor for an appointment which would be probably in the future some time. I called and they told me the next appointment was in 1 and a half weeks. I said well can't I see someone before I think I have an ear infection. She said I could get an emergency appointment but it would only be for 5 minutes. I said ok, when? 11.30 was the reply. Ummm today? I asked bemused. YEH!!!! So I went there and they told me that they would give me penicillin but I should try and not take them if I don't have too. So I had to ride it out for two days and then if not gone start the meds. Well today I had to get them meds and use them. I feel better but not 100%. I hope to recover before Sunday so I can play football. There is nothing I hate more than having no energy, I am used to being active and I feel imprisoned in this state. Can't do anything really, but on the other hand maybe I am meant to relax and recover, maybe it is my bodies way of making me listen lol.

I haven't even had the feeling to do photography either, it is harder to do it at home, takes more setup what with lighting etc. But I took a couple of pics to liven this blog up a bit. First of which is coming up .... (queue drum roll)


Edinburgh at night view from Calton Hill, not the best but it was bloody freezing and windy so I am happy with the result.

So as I said today I went to the chemist to get the penicillin and then I went to the shops for supplies, it is important to keep your strength up when sick. I even got pineapple which does make your throat feel better. Well I had this really strange feeling today when I was walking around the store and walking home with the shopping. It's hard to describe but I came to feel like that at the moment in time right now my life just felt like a dream like state. You know nothing seemed really tangible or fully there. Like everything looked normal but didn't feel right and that is exactly how I feel in LIMBO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So all in all in that moment I realised that I felt nothing. It is quite strange and discontenting. But one one positive it got me thinking about writing again. Seems that my creative writing goes hand in hand with turmoil or strange feelings lol.


The pills I have to take :(

So I came home and put my shopping away, took some pills and made some tea. Then I talked to Evelyn. Well I say talked, there was no talking involved on my part as my throat hurts like hell. It was nice to see her though. But with each day she feels further away and more like a dream. It really makes me feel that the task ahead is going to be a long and hard one. These pills really suck. I hate having to take pills. Never liked them since I was a kid, always had problems swallowing them. I would usually just ride out a cold or headache, but this time I am too weak.



So some good news ... I got an email from the Poem Catcher, telling me that he was publishing my poem which is kind of awesome I thought it had maybe blew away when they threw them up for the shot. But alas no, I am to be published :) He asked me to provide a picture so I think I will either send him the picture of me wearing the 3D glasses or the one of me and Eve as vampire which I edited and posted below this.



I am kind of glad though, you know when he came to photocamp and asked for poems I was not interested. Eve asked me to write one and I couldn't. He asked us to write them and I honestly didn't think I could come up with one in 1 minute. Then all in a sudden I got some inspiration. Yeh it is only two verses but on the spot pressure I think it was decent effort and I was pleased at how I could get the creative juices flowing under pressure. It terrified me at first but then I realised that I kind of liked it. I miss writing. So I had the feeling to finish my story which I will probably look at tomorrow as my first writing escapade was this blog. :)

So tonight I chilled and watched Scott Pilgrim versus the World. I like that movie it is stupid but fun and it reminds me of when Eve and I went to see it. Lol it is funny the girl Knives reminds me of Evelyn. She is my Knives, I will nickname her that. I miss her a lot which is strange for me, I am so used to it just being me against the World, but now it has all changed.

I hope I feel better tomorrow I want to get out the house for a bit and escape the prison. Fancy going to see the movie Skyline just for some SciFi escapism.

R